Letting go

It’s autumn here in Ontario, a season that teaches just how beautiful change is and that everything is temporary. Let me say that again. Everything is temporary. Everything. Your current job, or schooling, the place you call home, the pain and joy you experience, the very life you are living, it’s ALL temporary. An exciting realization while it can bring peace and comfort it can also provoke fear and anxiety as you try to cling to moments, memories “good” or “bad.”

Last week, we had some rather active weather, the winds of change were howling through the day and night clearing away the old ways of thinking and living. I see my current situation as a massive catalyst for the new women emerging, one who is putting the last four years of pain, misery, depression, restrictions, defiance, combativeness, and desperation behind her. Ok, it wasn’t all negative, but much of it was as with each setback whether instigated by a lack of reasonable judgment or lousy luck beat me down more and more.

Thankfully, during this time I never stopped flipping rocks. What I realize now, laying here writing this out, that’s my thing; I don’t give up. I push on regardless of the size of the mountain in front of me, and the last time I checked, BOLGERS DON’T QUIT! That was my mindset in racing, and sure as hell has been in trying to find a way to live a joy-filled life the last few years and now I’m on the other side of it all.

So where is all this coming from you may be asking at this point? Well, on Tuesday, October 30th Dr. Dwyer and I met at Women’s College Hospital for our third rendezvous where he repaired the right hip labral tear, a souvenir from my Ironman triathlon days. During the 2.5 hour procedure, the labrum, responsible for keeping the hip joint snug and secure, was sewn back together (very technical medical terms here) along with some work to reshape the big ball at the top of the femur bone in my leg (it’s called the femoral head). Shaving down this area allows the bone to move around in the joint more freely as the socket part of the joint where the femoral head fits into, was overgrown (and slighted tilted). They needed to make some space.

I barely recall any details from the recovery room, except where the lovely anesthesiologist gave me some VERY good painkillers and that I told him the nerve-block they gave me pre-operatively was a lie. No post op pics this time folks, cause that pain was NO joke! An hour later, the nurses in the post-op daycare hopped me up on more pain meds, we saw my surgeon again, and they sent us on our way. We got home that afternoon, and I resurfaced sometime Friday, feeling somewhat like a human again. Fast track to today, post op day 13 and recovery is coming along nicely. Two weeks in now and I’ve got the hang of crutches, they’re my best friend for the next four weeks, and I assume a few more following that, once I get to put weight on my foot again.

For now, I’m here watching Netflix, reading or listening to an audiobook and just letting my body do what it needs to do; heal. This long time coming for this, and I plan to do everything in power to provide the best conditions possible for my body to work its magic. On that note, very happy to say that today is the last day of the #gameready recovery system. It’s a unit that comes with looks like half a pair of men’s hockey shorts (it’s a giant wrap) that ices and compresses my leg and hip reducing pain, swelling and speeding up the recovery period. It’s a great tool, and thankful to have had it.

As the days continue, I’m going to remind myself as I mentioned earlier, this is temporary. Every day that passes is another day done in recovery, and before I know it, physio begins, and I get to start building back my strength and put this even farther behind me. Full disclosure, technically this post was started last week but had to cut the keyboard time short due to discomfort. Back at it today but wrapping this up soon for the same reasons.

Besides some physical pain, there have been a few moments; they weren’t dark or sad, but emotional. Perhaps because it has been such a long road and a very steep hill to climb, but as my husband said, I get to put it in high gear and enjoy the downslope now. And he’s right. So with that, my spirits are high as I continue to ride the recovery waves.



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Where’s Your Head At?

During a brief conversation on Instagram today I was reminded it had been some time since I was here last. With that, it was time to sit back and appreciate the experiences over the last few months.

Before I get into the details of the months past, I’ll address the title of this post. I’ve had this track in my head off and on for weeks now. While I loved it when it dropped back in 2001, it has a different meaning now. When I sing it in my head, it’s like a reminder to come back to now, and enjoy the present moment. Give it a listen and let me know what you think.

My goals for 2018 were to focus including more Health, Wealth and Happiness throughout the year; so far, so good!

Health
I’ve recommitted to my gluten and dairy free diet, and I do this to reduce inflammation in the body. Spending a week or so cheating with gluten (and making some less than stellar decisions in activity) had a noticeable impact so getting back on the wagon has been easy while establishing a health focus diet.

Strength training has been improving with a recent uptake on consistency and appropriate intensity. And although my goal is to have a ton of fun, there have been days I benched myself because my body pulled rank and said: “I don’t think so.”

Wealth
Well, regarding learning and personal growth, I hit the jackpot! Much has transpired as I completed the Fundamentals of Mindfulness and Mindful Meditation through the U of T, I finished the 50 Hours Mediation Teacher Training and became Reiki Level III certified.

Tending to the veggie patch has been rewarding, fulfilling and humbling. The tiniest of critters can and WILL decimate your crops if you don’t catch them quick enough. So far, there were looping caterpillars and moth larvae to contend with, and of course the heat waves but there has been much bounty we’ve enjoyed as well. The garden is still producing, and plants which had a rough start are taking hold and growing some veggies. Expansion plans are in the works for next season as we learn to pickle cucumbers and consider what else we want to try growing and canning.

Happiness
Hmm, happiness. Looking back at my aspirations for the year, I’d have to say mission accomplished! Much joy and happiness filled the past few months. There have been incredible sunsets and full moons enjoyed with friends, and sharing sunrises on the beach with dad. Past hurts have fallen away, cause really, who needs to carry all the crap from yesterday? Visits with family members I’ve not seen in a while and peaceful afternoons reading on the deck. And bikes, can I tell you how much fun I’ve had on my bike? I wish there had been more, but wow it was awesome. From shredding the trails with a huge group of women, some first timers to being a newbie myself ripping up the track on a BMX bike at a ladies only night. (seriously this is fun, go and try it if you can!). Spending a day at Habitat’s Halton location was incredibly rewarding and exciting learning how to use power tools, building walls and ultimately helping a family have a home!

I continue to find my way in this life, figuring out what speaks to my soul, makes my spidey senses tingle and what screams fun and fear at the same time. Sitting back reminiscing and savoring the memories provides an opportunity for gratitude for all that has transpired. Sure throughout there have been struggles, as everyone has, but it’s up to me to decide what I focus on and wish to remember.

My hope for this post is that you too, take a moment to sit back and appreciate all the good things that came your way this summer. And, if you feel you wish more were there to recall, I invite you to consider how you might welcome more Health, Wealth and Happiness into your life.




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#BellLetsTalk

Today is #BellLetsTalk day, so let’s talk!

It’s been two and half weeks that I’ve been battling a low back issue, I won’t bore you with the details, but it’s been an up and down episode. And today was an emotional day. Today, was a “tears on the treatment table” kind of day, and it’s wasn’t because of the muscle spasm during the acupuncture. It was because of this irritating pattern that keeps repeating, two weeks of activity and bam, something stupid happens, and it’s back on the bench for 2-4 weeks. Enough is enough already! So yeah, I had a little cry, I let go of some frustration that bubbled up, and now it’s about moving through the situation at hand with mindful intention.

Ok, sure, mindful intention what the heck is she talking about you’re thinking. Well, it’s about stepping back from the situation and not allowing the suffering to be all-consuming. It’s allowing myself to feel the pain, letting myself the feel the frustration about the situation and working my way through it. It’s about seeing what there is to learn from the time on the bench, realizing this is an opportunity for gratitude and appreciation.

Hmm, so this trying pattern keeps popping up, what does it have to teach me?

Ha, so much for mindful intention, back to #BellLetsTalk day. This reason why I shared a little about what’s been going on with me, is for others to know it’s okay. It’s okay to have a day that feels more down than up that there may be a time in your life where you have many of these days, maybe weeks or months. You are not alone, many of us go through situations that are difficult, scary, dark and feel as though they will never end. I hope for you they do. Please have some compassion for yourself; please allow yourself to feel the pain so that you can move through the pain, not keeping it bottled up within stealing your joy. Because you, me and everyone else deserves to experience joy.

Below is a part of a loving-kindness mediation you can try to practice, it may help you find some peace dealing with whatever is on your plate. You can start with yourself, or if you so choose start with those you love or even those who cause you pain and practice this mediation to find some peace.

Calm the mind/heart and find the center of your being. Generate warm, gentle, loving feelings for yourself:
May I be safe from harm.
May I be happy just as I am.
May I be peaceful with whatever is happening.
May I be healthy and strong.
May I care for myself in this ever-changing world graciously, joyously.
May you find peace, may you find happiness, may you find calm.

Feel free to find more info here:

Loving-Kindness Meditation

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Health, Wealth & Happiness

I haven’t posted anything since the inspiring evening shared with Taryn and the other local BIM ambassadors nearly a year ago. While the changes over the last year have been subtle externally, they have been deep internally.

At the start of 2017 post-op physio was ongoing for the right knee arthroscopic surgery done in November. The realization of taking my foot off the gas and allowing time for my body to heal and recover from not only the two surgeries but the years of endurance sports was more than ok; it’s necessary. For the rest of the year, I spent much of my time focused on work, my day job. It’s challenging, our new initiatives are exciting, but if I allow it, it’s all-consuming. By the time December rolled around I was burnt out.

While away on vacation I had some time to reflect on the past 12 months and made some decisions about how 2018 was going to roll.
Rather than setting unrealistic or restrictive goals, you know the ones people tend to make focusing on things like “losing ten pounds” the realization of more not less came over me; it was time for a different approach.

Ok great, so what does this mean you ask? The objective is to spend more time having fun and making different choices focusing instead on health, wealth and happiness.

Health
I will plan my exercise time as any other appointment, waking early some days to get in a spin before work or packing my yoga bag and going to a class in the evening. It means, I’m going to participate in activities I enjoy, find challenging and are FUN! And I’ll get more rest and more restorative downtime.

It means that I’ll include more fresh fruits and vegetables in my diet along with more alternative protein sources like soy, tofu, and seafood and I’ll drink my herbal tea and water.

Health also means listening to my body, mind, and soul and doing what feels right for me. It may mean taking a warm bath, stretching, going for a hike with a friend or choosing to say no to something that doesn’t resonate with me physically, spiritually or mentally. And realizing these feelings can change day by day, and that’s ok.

Wealth
To focus on wealth can mean different things to different people. For 2018 it means I’ll spend more time learning and growing taking classes that interest me, listening to more audiobooks and taking a crack at planting my first vegetable garden. It also means looking at my relationships, nurturing existing ones and expanding my social circles.

Living where I do, there is also a focus on wealth from a financial standpoint, and this includes making wise choices when it comes to the dollars I earn and receive and being open to new possibilities and opportunities.

Happiness
Happiness is where gratitude comes in because, without it, we can’t ever be happy. Quite often, people seek happiness externally; they’ll “be happy when x, y, and z happen” rather than taking stock of all the fantastic and beautiful things they already have and being thankful for it all. Even finding some gratitude for the pain and suffering, you’ve endured can have an immense effect on your overall happiness. Speaking first hand as I’ve had my fair share of pain in this life, I know, 100% that I am all the better for it. Sure, at times, it sucked but working my way through it all has provided so many lessons and opportunities for growth that there is no way I can deny I’m a different person than before.

Ok so besides being thankful for pain, there are other things I can do to cultivate more happiness in my life. So, with a goal to achieve more happiness this means having more gratitude, taking part in more meditation, having more quiet contemplation and more love. Love for it all, the good, the bad and the ugly and more love for myself included.

My hope for you this year, is that you too will look for ways to focus on more, rather than on less. May you find peace, love, and happiness.

Happy New Year.



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Until Now

I don’t know what I feel right now. I keep waiting for this big revelation, but on the surface, it seems like nothing is happening. That’s why a seat at the keyboard is needed, to take some time to reflect and appreciate the journey.

I had another knee surgery last week, with procedures similar to the previous work done on the left knee in June. The feelings this time are different, there is a calmness compared to the days that followed last time. Perhaps it’s because the fear of the unknown is gone, the fear of what’s to come is no longer a fear but more curiosity.

Wednesday was the first trip out of the house, heading back downtown for a post-op follow up. Before this visit, plans were starting to form for a return to activity, ok honestly, even before surgery next season plans for exercising and training were already brewing. Bouncing between what 2017 would hold, post-operative care and rehab and what the long term picture looked like kept my mind busy, but I’m used to this.

For the past three years, there have been appointments after appointments after appointments. I’ve spent a lot of time and a lot of money treating my knees and then torn hip so to have my knees top of mind and feelings of being held back became the norm. And my question to the doctor about “what do I do now for the long term” seemed necessary. He teased me a little a first, as we have a good rapport, but in seriousness he suggested we give it three months and go from there.

I looked away. What!? Go from there? See you in three months, let’s see? What about patella replacements? What about shots of PRP or stem cells? Go from there? I looked back to him and said “Wait, so you’re saying after three years of worrying about my knees, I can stop now? I felt my eyes start to well up, but I forced back any more emotion.

Until now.

tears of joy and relief

For anyone who knows me, really knows me I’m a bit of a steam engine flying down the tracks full steam ahead with no intentions of stopping, let alone backing up. Can you relate to this? So focused on the goal, the finish line the next “whatever” you fail to realize the depth of your accomplishments along the way? You maybe aren’t willing to stop, slow down or even backtrack when necessary? Because taking that step back is not progress right?

Steam locomotive.Hand drawn illustration.
Full Steam Ahead!.

But wait, that’s what surgery and recovery are about. You have to take some steps backward to move forward! I’ve been so focused on the long term and so focus on “what do I need to do next” I hadn’t stopped realize or appreciate that what I’ve been doing were the right things. In my mind, I was just the train flying down the tracks with the final destination in sight ignoring the time spent getting maintenance done or acknowledging the tank was getting refilled.

Until Now.

Rubber stamp with word appreciate inside vector illustration
Appreciate the journey.



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Check Up from the Neck Up

The World Health Organization recognizes today, October 10th, as World Mental Health Day. As per their website, “The Day provides an opportunity for all stakeholders working on mental health issues to talk about their work, and what more needs to be done to make mental health care a reality for people worldwide.”

Well, I consider myself and everyone else a stakeholder when it comes to mental health as it affects us all. Mental health is no less important than physical health and when one is not well, nor is the other.

According to the Canadian Mental Health Association, “Mental health means striking a balance in all aspects of your life: social, physical, spiritual, economic and mental. Reaching a balance is a learning process. At times, you may tip the balance too much in one direction and have to find your footing again. Your personal balance will be unique, and your challenge will be to stay mentally healthy by keeping that balance.”

In Canada, it also happens to be Thanksgiving today. What a special day where we can celebrate, have gratitude and give thanks for so much including our mental health.

How we handle and cope with stress and illness ties in too. It’s no secret that, the last few years I experienced ups and downs, and the downs took me to low places. Deep, dark, scary places. I was in such a dark place; I was scared I would never be able to climb out. But I did.

How we think and feel about ourselves directly affects our mental health.

How I managed to climb out of that darkness was unique to me as I am to the next. It took a lot of hard work and courage not to quit and keep looking for a way out. Eventually, the pieces came together, and I saw the faintest flicker. As I continued to seek out different sources of support, the flicker grew brighter and brighter, and before I knew it, I was out of the dark and standing in the light again.

A Healthy You = A Healthy Body, A Healthy Spirit And A Healthy Mind.
A Healthy You = A Healthy Body, A Healthy Spirit And A Healthy Mind.

A couple of months ago, during the first few weeks of recovery from my knee surgery, I felt myself slipping back into that dark place and it scared me. I didn’t ever want to return there. No one wants to go back after finding their way out, and that’s what was happening.

What this experience taught me was that my mental health is as important as my physical health and should be taken care of daily. How we achieve good mental health, I believe in a lot of ways, is the same as ensuring good physical health. Eating a balanced diet, getting some regular exercise, getting adequate sleep and finding joy in our day can go a long way. For me, it’s learning to keep things in perspective, being able to let go, and asking for some help when it’s needed.

When October 10 is known for something other than World Mental Health day, that will be a great day! When that happens, it will because we will have ended the stigma and mental health will be talked about as regularly as we talk about physical health, and we won’t need to have a day dedicated to raising awareness.

To celebrate both Thanksgiving and World Mental Health day, I prepared a large batch of my anti-inflammatory shake and pre-cooked a few osteoarthritis friendly meals after attending a hot yoga class led by my favourite instructor.

So, what did you do today for your mental health?

Perfect day for a cup of "nourish the soul" tea.
Perfect day for a cup of “nourish the soul” tea.



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Being a “good” patient

It takes more than patience to be a good patient.

The below was my post on ratemds.com regarding experiences with my orthopedic surgeon, as this journey is not over yet. And it’s up to me in how I deal with the emotions that come along for the ride…

Green two-way street sign pointing to Fix It or Live With It, te

I saw Dr. Dwyer for a second opinion regarding my knees. Before going in, the online reviews had to be read, getting a lay of the land from those who had ventured ahead of me. While it seemed like Dr. Dwyer was harsh during the initial visit (as some others commented about) NOTHING, he said was incorrect or out of line.

He’s honest, and he asks that you be honest with yourself.

Some people, myself included aren’t always ready to accept or hear that level of honesty. Believe me; I get it. We are there at the mercy of the surgeons or other healthcare professionals while we are in a broken state. “Broken” in all senses of the word. Our bodies, sprites, and hearts are broken and in pain, and we just want to be able to do again the things we love. Surgeons or any healthcare practitioner, don’t have it easy when it comes to giving patients potentially devastating news. No one wants to hear the hard truths. Ever.

So, next time you have a conversation with any medical professional regarding your situation before you go online and write a scathing review or storm out never to return again, let it sit for a few days, maybe even weeks. Try to keep an open mind and allow the information they provide to soak in. Also if you can, try to see it from their perspective; remember we went to them for help, it doesn’t mean you have to like what they say. But you have to be willing to listen and hear it.

Having my husband there, someone at a distance from the situation who could listen to both sides and provide yet another perspective was invaluable.

I’ve since had surgery, and I’m happy to say recovery is going well. So well, in fact, the other knee is already scheduled. If you should happen to require the services of an orthopedic surgeon, you couldn’t be in better hands than with Dr. Dwyer and his assistant Angela.



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Recovery is not just for the body.

Surgery is considered a “controlled injury” and while I realized it would require downtime and rehab, I hadn’t given this part of the process much thought. The focus had been mostly on the big day where finally a surgeon would “fix” me. haha. What was I thinking?
“Recovery” mentally feels like you are being held back by a giant rubber band, trying to run forward but that band keeps you from going too far, too fast. Picturing a rubber band feels better than imagining being on a leash and believe me there are enough people who could be holding the other end. I wouldn’t stand a chance in breaking free and taking off and as an “A-type” this is hard to take. Week after week, the resistance will weaken giving a bit more distance, ah, another life lesson in patience.
focusonlife
It was around day seven things were starting to sink in, the reality of recovery was becoming more and more apparent. While looking for some inspiration online, this quote was among the first few results, “Focus on what you want your life to look like – not just your body.” OMG! That’s when it hit me. Coming across this quote was like finally finding the light switch in a dark room. I’d been feeling around in the dark, grasping for something to hold on to, but looking in all the wrong places. All these years, I spent consumed about my body size, shape and the number that appeared on the scale. I never sat back and thought about what shape I wanted my life to take; I was too busy being obsessed with my body weight!

Over the past few months, I’d been trying to focus on making better decisions rather than buy into another plan. Because I honestly can’t take the thought of worrying or talking about my weight ANYMORE. I AM DONE! I am sick and tired of this conversation, with the feelings that come with it. I want to talk about how to get out of it, rather than about being in it.

So while I’m laid up, the focus turns to strengthing this beautiful body that has already accomplished and given me so much! Now is the time to slow down and take care of it, nourish it, love it and help it come back stronger than ever while pondering about what the future holds.



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Reflection & Repair, Rebuild, Return

It’s been a while since the last post and I feel like I have a lot to say about what’s been going on with me lately.

A week and a half ago my thirty-sixth birthday rolled around and with it, I spent a lot of time reflecting on how I now felt compared to last year. Grounded. Feeling grounded is the best way to explain it. Last year I felt anything but, filled with anxiety, anger and impatience for anything that wasn’t what I wanted.

The girl from five years ago.
The girl from five years ago.

The day before my birthday, Facebook also gave me a great reminder of the girl I use to be. The girl who five years ago nearly quit training for what would become a life-changing event. As I type this, I can recall exactly how it felt returning to the store after finishing the 3km run. Here’s a little peek into how that night went, the following is an excerpt from the post I wrote after returning home and having serious doubts about the race and a really big cry:

Week 1: Run 1 (if you can call it that)
Or What the %$&@ was I thinking?
Or “back of the pack”.
Or “Oh my god I am going to throw-up in the store”.

All of the above easily could have been the title for this blog but I thought I would keep it
short and sweet and to the point. (if you care the read the rest, feel free here.)

As cheesy as Facebook can be, that blast from the past was what I needed to see and remember. I’m the girl who set a few big ass goals and accomplished them, the girl who was terrified but didn’t quit!

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If you’ve been following along, or you know me (in person) then you are probably bored of hearing about being benched while I’ve dealt with some injuries. Believe me, I’m bored talking about it! My knees have given me a hard time for as long as I can remember, but it wasn’t until I was in the midst of my triathlon experience that I got the low down. OA. I had OA in both knees, and it was bad. I had been doing injections with little to no relief for a year and half. After my left knee gave out on me last spring, the focus turned to finding a surgeon to see what could be done.

Long story short, I’m happy to say last Thursday had me at Women’s College Hospital in Toronto for a patella lateral release. The goal is to get my kneecap back to where it belongs to eliminate pain on a daily basis. My hope is that with some additional treatment, we can regenerate cartilage with the use of stem cell injections but I’m not ready to jump on that bandwagon without doing more homework. First things first, recovery AND find out if the right knee requires some surgical intervention too.

exerciseThese days, I feel like I’m standing at the starting line, but the gate is blocking my way. There’s no route or map defined, but I know there is a destination. This time, the journey will be different too. This time, I’m coming at it from a place of love, not loathing. I’m not doing this to punish my body, or to punish myself (except in a good way). I’m going to be active because I can, because it’s fun and because it’s good for me mentally as much as it is physically.

So for now, I’m in recovery but in the grander scheme, this is the first phase of my new motto: Repair, Rebuild, Return.



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Making Space

Hope. Denial. Struggle. Conceding. These four words sum up nicely the conflict that was happening within my mind for quite some time. The more I fought against my reality, the more painful it became.

Hope. Hope is necessary for a happy life. It gives you the opportunity to dream and to remain positive in the face of adversity. Hope allows you to believe in something bigger than yourself.

“Hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops at all.”– Emily Dickinson (1830 – 1886)

When faced with stressful or challenging situations, hope might be what keeps you going, feeding the optimising engine within. We might cling to hope in the face of sorrow, sadness and grief because facing the truth may be too painful to accept. Is this hope, or is this denial?

Denial will masquerade as hope, and it’s dangerous to live this way. It’s misleading, and in the end, you are left with the same (if not worse). Denial is closing your eyes and sticking your fingers in your ears. Now, you can’t hear it, and you can’t see it, but the truth is, the “bad news” is still there. No matter how hard you try to ignore it, to fight it, your reality is your reality.

Letting Go

Heartbroken and scared. Holding onto what I thought was hope, for a long time kept me angry and stuck. Ha, holding. That’s funny. It was more like a death grip where my arms and legs were wrapped so tight they went completely numb. Clinging on to the past, terrified that I wouldn’t be able to do the same things I was use to doing. Wishing, hoping, pretending that I’ll wake up one day and everything will be okay. Visit after visit, doctor after doctor, they all said the same thing. I’m sure some of them thought I was crazy when I pushed back, fighting what they said. Not wanting to believe it, not able to. If I couldn’t participate in my sport, what was I? What would I become? What would come undone?

Sure, to some this sounds stupid and insignificant. To some people, I should just shut up and “get over it”. It’s. Not. That. Simple.

Creating Space

When you find a passion, sport or “thing” that lights your fire, it is devasting to lose it, even the fear of losing it. You feel as though you’ve lost a part of yourself, part of your identity. This “thing”, this thing is what I sacrificed so much for, I learned so much from, the very thing that saved my life. Without running I would never have gone on meeting some of the most amazing people in my life, had some of the most incredible and life-changing experiences a person could have, nor would I have found what’s within me, the magical essence that makes me who I am.

So, while this is not news that running is something that may not be in my future, at least likely not long distances, I’m finally letting go, realizing accepting this is my truth, my reality. The more this happens, the more space that’s created to try something new. Sure I can continue to hope and do the work that goes with it, and maybe one day in the future things will be different. But what I can’t keep doing, is living with my eyes closed tight and my fingers shoved in my ears. Now that I’ve unplugged my ears, I can hear. With my hands-free, I can cover my eyes because yes there’s still apprehension for what the future holds but now I can peek through my fingers. And I’m starting to see that everything is going to be okay.



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